And, Oh, But She’s So Brave, Though, Just Like a Tornado

Put my whole heart on the line,
Get hurt every single time.
Loving you was never tough,
But it still wasn’t enough.
You saw problems,
Never asked for a solution.
I saw our future,
Staying in a forward motion.

Time slowed down to a standstill,
Draining my resolve and will.
Thunder and lightning brew,
Mind wondering what was true.
Stumbling, falling to the ground,
Listening for lost familiar sounds.
Reaching out for a sign, an omen,
Untangling threads of life’s hope stolen.

Sunlight bathes me in its glow,
Promising a bright future to show.
Hesitation binds my feet to this spot,
Determination guides me onward to trot.
Moonbeams shower my body at night,
Charging my energy and resolve to take flight.
Heart still yearning for Him,
Soul guiding my lifelong swim.

For every breath I take that parts our days,
I step down the path for the one who stays.
Will you return to me?
Is it meant to be?
Or is there another behind your shadow,
Searching as I do with no time to borrow?
Alone or bound to another soul,
My rare heart is the true prize to hold.

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: Truth – Paradise ~ by Truth Hawks

Dress: Salt & Pepper – Millie Dress ~ by Salt Peppermint (SL17B Shop and Hop gift)

Choker: Ahegao – Little Kitten Collar ~ by AmiTrouble Resident

Earrings: e.marie – Nami Earrings – Golds ~ by Emiliana Nova

Bracelet: [ kunst ] – Olivia Handpiece ~ by Kunst Himmel

Rings & Nails: RealEvil Industries – Glam Nails & Rings ~ by Crashnoww Resident

Head: LeLutka – LeLutka Bento Head-KORINA ~ by Jadenart Resident

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

My Body Details

I Found Solace in the Strangest Place Way in the Back of My Mind

Looking back on the past 12 or so months, I have been battling demons and dealing with some of the toughest health issues of my life. Four ER trips, a two-month stint in the hospital following major surgery, and multiple traumas that no one should have to go through made up the majority of my 2019. Every year has its ups and downs, but seldom have I felt close to breaking. I felt betrayed by my body. Unable to get through my day without sheer exhaustion from struggling to function.

And yet…I’ve pulled through the darkness. I’ve climbed over that terrifying mountain and made it to the other side, finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. While I’ve beaten the hardest part of this past year, the road ahead won’t be easy as I heal, strengthen, and grow as a person both mentally and physically. Thankfully, I won’t be alone on my journey. My family, friends, and partner have all been behind me, supporting and cheering me on each step of the way in my recovery. While I’ve never doubted their support, I admit to doubting myself at times. I’m only human.

With the dawn of a new year and a new decade, I hope to find renewed strength and love for myself. 2019 knocked me down but 2020 is already showing promise if I continue to move forward. As always, I’m not going to give in. Not going to fall. I’m still breathing. ♥

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – Jamie – Fatpack ~ by Truth Hawks

Top: erratic – janelle – crop top / feline (maitreya) ~ by Erratic Rain

Earrings: e.marie – Farrah Earrings – Golds ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident @ N-Twenty1 December 2019

Bracelets: [ kunst ] – Olivia Handpiece ~ by Kunst Himmel @ Kustom9

Bracelet: e.marie – Friendship Bracelet – Sterling ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Collar: Violent Seduction – Aureus (Fatpack) ~ by Iki Akiri

Headband: e.marie – 2020 Headband ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Head: LeLutka – Bento Head-KORINA ~ by JadenArt Resident

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

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