I Found Solace in the Strangest Place Way in the Back of My Mind

I Found Solace in the Strangest Place Way in the Back of My Mind

Looking back on the past 12 or so months, I have been battling demons and dealing with some of the toughest health issues of my life. Four ER trips, a two-month stint in the hospital following major surgery, and multiple traumas that no one should have to go through made up the majority of my 2019. Every year has its ups and downs, but seldom have I felt close to breaking. I felt betrayed by my body. Unable to get through my day without sheer exhaustion from struggling to function.

And yet…I’ve pulled through the darkness. I’ve climbed over that terrifying mountain and made it to the other side, finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. While I’ve beaten the hardest part of this past year, the road ahead won’t be easy as I heal, strengthen, and grow as a person both mentally and physically. Thankfully, I won’t be alone on my journey. My family, friends, and partner have all been behind me, supporting and cheering me on each step of the way in my recovery. While I’ve never doubted their support, I admit to doubting myself at times. I’m only human.

With the dawn of a new year and a new decade, I hope to find renewed strength and love for myself. 2019 knocked me down but 2020 is already showing promise if I continue to move forward. As always, I’m not going to give in. Not going to fall. I’m still breathing. ♥

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – Jamie – Fatpack ~ by Truth Hawks

Top: erratic – janelle – crop top / feline (maitreya) ~ by Erratic Rain

Earrings: e.marie – Farrah Earrings – Golds ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident @ N-Twenty1 December 2019

Bracelets: [ kunst ] – Olivia Handpiece ~ by Kunst Himmel @ Kustom9

Bracelet: e.marie – Friendship Bracelet – Sterling ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Collar: Violent Seduction – Aureus (Fatpack) ~ by Iki Akiri

Headband: e.marie – 2020 Headband ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Head: LeLutka – Bento Head-KORINA ~ by JadenArt Resident

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

Links — > N-Twenty1

I’m Countin’ On You to Carry Me Through

I'm Countin' On You to Carry Me Through

Hello everyone! It’s been some time since I’ve last posted. My Muse took a little holiday but she’s been tempted back by a few events that have recently begun. Today I am sharing an item from one of my favorite shops, =EC Designs=, that is currently on sale at the SL Home and Garden Expo.

=EC Designs= has created a beautiful raft that will be perfect for lazy summer days in the heat on the river. There are so many poses loaded into this raft that you will never run out of options whether you are single or cuddled up with a special someone. Six avatars can sit on the All Aboard Raft which means you have quite a few seating combinations between six singles, 3 couples, or some variation of the two. While couples do need to sit in a certain spot for the poses to mesh appropriately for female and male couples, individuals may sit in any location and choose from female or male pose menus. No matter which menu you’re using, there are TONS of options. While at the SL Home and Garden Expo, this fantastic piece will be discounted and 100% of its sales go to Relay for Life so you will be contributing to a good cause while also getting a good deal! Also peek at their Harboside Gazebo and Porthole Clocks Gacha while you are there.

With the Cart Sale just opening today, more is on the way so check back soon! 🙂

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: Magika – Road ~ by Sabina Gully

Outfit: Blueberry – Ivy ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Gloves: [Atomic] – Darling Gloves ~ byIvy Graves

Rings: Kibitz – Sandra hand jewelry – silver ~ by Kathya Szczepanski

~ Furniture ~

Raft: =EC Designs= – (All Aboard Raft) ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, & Muireann Galli @ SL Home & Garden Expo

Links — > SL Home & Garden Expo, =EC Designs=, Blueberry

Home & Garden Expo Display Logo (2019)

Everybody’s Comin’, Leave Your Body at the Door

Everybody's Comin', Leave Your Body at the Door

Hello monsters and ghouls! There is a new event called Trick or Treat that started October 21st and I am excited to share it with you all! If you like gachas and Halloween, this is an event for you; play for free and play all the gachas like normal or you can buy the VIP Hud which will give you a grand prize once you’ve played each gacha until you collect all prizes. No gacha item is repeated so there is no worries about duplicate items. Find more info on how it all works and landmarks here. Now on to some previews!

I’m still trying to figure out my costume for Halloween so I picked up a few things to mix and match with. At The Little Bat, the Grand Prize is a set of Monochrome Leggings that have several different patterns for the top section to pick from. This set comes in an omega applier. Commons include other leggings variations and mesh nails fitted for Maitreya and Slink hands.

My top is from Squishy Fluff and is one of several of the Treat tops with words on it. It comes fitted for Maitreya, Slink Physique and Hourglass, Kemono, and Ruth2 mesh bodies. Collect all ten tops and get comfy for the house or out and about. Squishy Fluff also has trick prizes that include raisin dresses and Pumpkin Spice Lax.

To complete my look, I picked up a necklace from Astara. They have both good and bad witch crystal necklaces so play until you get one you prefer. Cubic Cherry made cute horns, eyes, and a mask for the grand prize. The horns seemed to match my look for this evening the most and nestle perfectly in my hair. Lastly, I couldn’t forget my Frankenbucket with candy and my gummy worm to keep me energized for partying all night long.

Everybody's Comin', Leave Your Body at the Door

Look out for more previews soon and have fun Trick or Treating!

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – TRUTH VIP Batty ~ by Truth Hawks

Top: Squishy Fluff – TREAT – Snarky Raglan Top – Fluent In Sarcas ~ by Skyler Glasswing @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Pants: The Little Bat – !TLB – Monochrome Leggings ~ by Drusilla Dethly @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Shoes: REIGN – HOCUS PLATFORM HEELS – Black&White Pack ~ by Kenadeecole and Illy Miami

Necklace: Astara – Bad Witch Necklace Green ~ Astarabonnibelle Resident @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Horns: [Cubic Cherry] – {Lil Devil} headband SKY ~ by Kreao Kujisawa @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Gummy: ~SongBird~ – Mouth Gummy Worms ~ by Nimil Blackflag @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Pose: Foxcity – Red Hot Bento Pose Set ~ by Satomi Masukami

My Body Details

~ Furniture and Decor ~

House: Scarlet Creative – Lovecraft Gothic Cottage Purple ~ by Charlotte Bartlett

Web: +Half-Deer+ – Starlit Spiderwebs [Set of 5] ~ by Halogen Magic

Pumpkin Left: {vespertine} – illuminated pumpkin – short /witchy purple ~ by Amelie Knelstrom @ Collabor88 October 2018

Pumpkin Right: {vespertine} – illuminated pumpkin – tall /zombie green ~ by Amelie Knelstrom @ Collabor88 October 2018

Bucket: ~SongBird~ – Frankenbucket (filled) ~ by Nimil Blackflag @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Mat: brocante. – doormat / it’s lit ~ by Tegan Serin @ Salem 2018

Links — > SLS Trick or Treat, Salem, Collabor88

Who Am I to Disagree?

Who Am I to Disagree?

As we near All Hallow’s Eve, the spook and eerie atmosphere around us seems to slowly grow darker and more sinister. Neighbors put out decorations that seem to watch us in the night when we return home in the dark, superstitions may seem to hold more truth than we would normally give credit, and some people don an alter ego they’ve been planning on all year.

Who Am I to Disagree?

Unlike real life, SecondLife allows us the opportunity to be who we want any time of the year, moment to moment, avatar to avatar. We create the environment we want to live in as well. A popular roleplay in SecondLife involves vampires. In fact, there are many roleplay systems devoted to vampires and werewolves in SL. Many sims are home to clans that live in giant castles and house coffins to slumber in during the day, except in sl it can be night all the time. Dictatorshop has recently been releasing pieces that make up a set perfect for any gothic enthusiast who may have an interest in vampire animations as well. Read on for more on each piece featured in this post!

The Vespera collection encompasses a range of pieces that are perfect for the bedroom or other rooms within a castle or structure of your choice. My favorite piece has to be the Vespera Bondage Bed. The texturing of the bed, ironwork, and wood is beautiful and looks fantastic in both low and high graphic settings. For those who know what to look for, they will also find a lifestyle related symbol subtly worked into the iron on the canopy of the bed. Animation menus are loaded with great poses for you and a loved one or just a friend to snuggle. There are three versions of the bed which will determine the animations you’ll be getting; PG, Adult Vanilla, and Adult Kink. One part of the bed that took me a bit to figure out was how to access the bondage menus on the Adult Kink version. If you are looking for the very adult animations on this version that are in addition to vanilla, lesbian, and threesome menus, click the footboard of the bed and choose either MaleDom or FemDom to suit your needs. A two step stool rezzes on the side of the bed that you can sit on, or use the metal rings on the bedposts, then play to your heart’s content! Today is the last day to grab it while it is at the Black Fair before it goes full price in the mainstore and marketplace.

Who Am I to Disagree?

At Ultra until November 10th, you can find the Vespera Coffin Chair, which matches the Vespera Coffin Sofa that is also pictured here. Like the bed, both the chair and sofa come in three rating levels, PG, Adult Vanilla, and Adult Kink. Only the Coffin Chair Adult Kink version has animations specifically for those who want vampire poses for “feeding” or biting in a tasteful manner. Many of the animations match what you will find in  the bed an other Dictatorshop pieces. To change the texture on the chair and sofa, click the logo in the back to change leather colors and metals. Whether you are wanting dark or bright and fun, there is something to fit in any color scheme.

Who Am I to Disagree?

Some men and women feel they are royalty and deserve a throne to fit their status. If you run a clan, the Vespera Throne is perfect for you. Not only does this throne fit in with the rest of the Vespera line, but it also has additional vampire themed animations in the Adult Kink version. Like the other pieces, get this gem in three different version depending on your animation needs. If you look closely, like the bed, the throne features lifestyle related symbols embedded into the metal of the headboard. Find it at Cosmopolitan until the event ends and it moves to the mainstore!

Who Am I to Disagree?

The last piece I have pictured is the Vespera Dragon Armoire, currently being sold at the Red Light District. Unlike the other Vespera pieces, the Armoire is RLV cage that someone can sit in and be controlled by others who click to access the menu. Menus to change textures and security access are inside the Armoire. You can change the wood texture and make the doors transparent or solid. If you’re not interested in the animations, this piece still makes a lovely decorative piece to any boudoir.

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Beginning October 21st, a new event called Trick or Treat will be starting and I am part of the blog team covering it. Keep a look out for more soon with peeks at what you can find. Can’t wait? Check it out here.

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: #BESOM HAIR – A-List *Browns* ~ by Kattington Resident

Top: Vinyl – 3am Knotted Tee Pak FLF Here for the Candy ~ by Sukoshitosuto Resident @ FLF

Skirt: Vinyl – Daria Athletic Skirt Pak FLF SKULLS ~ by Sukoshitosuto Resident @ FLF

Tail: Aurascape – Vixen Tail Version 2.0 ~ by Vixten Resident

~ Furniture and Decor ~

Bed: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Vespera Bondage Bed – ADULT KINK ~ by Dictatorshop Resident @ Black Fair October 2018

Couch: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Vespera Coffin Sofa Adult Kink ~ by Dictatorshop Resident @

Chair: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Vespera Coffin Chair – Adult Kink Vampire 3some ~ by Dictatorshop @ Ultra October 2018

Throne: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Vespera Throne – Adult Kink/Vampire ~ by Dictatorshop Resident @ Cosmopolitan October 2018

Wardrobe: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Vespera Dragon Armoire ~ by Dictatorshop Resident @ Red Light District RLD

Table: {what next} – Charlotte Coffee Table – Mesh ~ by Winter Thorn

Mugs: {what next} – Fall Woodland Drinks (boxed) ~ by Winter Thorn @ FLF

Laptop/Books: .peaches. – Tap That App – Laptop and Books ~ by Imaginerabbits Resident

Mirror: Kalopsia – 7 Years Bad Luck Mirror ~ by Shawneese Offcourse @ Collabor88

Frame: Candle and Cauldron – {C&C} Wolf Moon Frame ~ by Fenni Crispien

Links —> Dictatorshop, Black Fair, FLF, Ultra, Red Light District RLD, Collabor88, Cosmopolitan

You Know I Know, Yes, I’ve Been Told I Redefine a Sin

You Know I Know, Yes, I've Been Told I Redefine a Sin

Most people learn about sin either through the religion their family teaches and raises them with or though literature, movies, tv, or art. We learn there are seven original sins: lust, greed, gluttony, sloth, wrath, avarice, and pride. On one hand, we learn that sins are bad, negative, not to be done. Yet for some, the warnings we’re given aren’t deterrents for committing sins. In Dante’s Divine Comedy, the first part explores the nine levels of Hell or Inferno. This September’s round of Twisted Hunt is inspired by Dante’s Inferno. If you haven’t heard of Twisted Hunt, it is a grid wide hunt in Secondlife that is completely free and rightfully claimed to be the hardest hunt on the grid. I’ve completed quite a few of these hunts that happen every March and September, and yes, they are the hardest hunts I’ve done in sl. But the trade off is that you get some fantastic gifts from the participating merchants. If you don’t mind working hard for some cool stuff, check out a couple of things I’ve already swiped on the hunt. So my friends at =EC Designs=, Mishmash Fusion, and ~MystRie~ all collaborated on another side hunt for Twisted Hunt. Like their side hunt for Twisted Hunt Atlantis in March, you must travel through multiple levels, finding a prize and the correct teleport object. This time though, you must venture much like Dante, through the nine levels of Hell. If you aren’t feeling the heat in the side hunt, it’s not required, although you do get to see the main prize from =EC Designs= at the end. The final level of Hell features a frozen lake, skulls, and well… a lot of bad juju from the worst sinners. The actual prize from =EC  Designs= is a frozen lake with trees around it that you can sit on with friends or a loved one or use some of the ropes to “hang out” on. It’s a bit creepy and spooky, and perfect for Halloween season. There are a TON of pose options for couples and singles, even a spot for petite avatars! Hunt for this prize in the =EC Designs= shop. Also out in the shop are some gachas to play, one of which are skates to use on your new lake from Hell. Unrigged, the Hellskates should work for most human avatars. if you wear a mesh body, you should only need to detach or hide your feet. Classic avatars can adjust the height of the skate to suit. Collect all of the skates and show off your skating skills on your new lake!

You Know I Know, Yes, I've Been Told I Redefine a Sin

To match the Hellskates, Mishmash Fusion also has a gacha with ice skating dresses out. Sorry gents, no outfits for you, but the hunt prize has a nice suit for both women and men! The Hellskater Outfits match each of the Hellskates so you can have a complete set if you get a matching pair OR you can buy the fatpack and have them all. Sizes for the outfit are modeled for Belleza, Slink, Maitreya, eBody, and Tonic mesh bodies. Find this and another dress gacha in Mishmash Fusion’s mainstore while you’re hunting for their prize cube!

Credits

Hair: Doe – Arabella (twotone) – Essentials RARE ~ by Helyanwe Vindaloo

Dress: Mishmash Fusion – ~*MF*~ Hellskater Outfit – 3. Gluttony RARE ~ by Mystical Edenflower @ Twisted Hunt Fall 2018

Skates: =EC Designs= – Hellskates – 3-Gluttony ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, & Muireann Galli @ Twisted Hunt Fall 2018

Pose: FOXCITY – Body Language Bento Pose Set ~ by Satomi Masukami

My Body Details

Frozen Lake: =EC Designs= – (Lake Cocytus – Ice Rink and Hangout) ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, & Muireann Galli @ Twisted Hunt Fall 2018

Links — > Mishmash Fusion, =EC Designs=, Twisted Hunt

Every Second Counts ’cause There’s No Second Try

Every Second Counts 'cause There's No Second Try

Saying goodbye to the past. Took my last look. Never turning back.

Leaves falling, slowly turning darker, drier, more brittle with each passing day. Ground crumbling beneath our feet. Announcing a change running its course. You can’t see the end. It blends in with the horizon, farther than you can see. Further than me.

Each step takes me closer. To the Dark. To the Light. Will you join me on this path? Or leave me to find my way? As I chase the Dream, you hesitate, scared to take the Leap.


This is my last post for this round of the Cart Sale. There is still so much to see so I highly recommend taking a look before the event ends on September 5th. All links listed below the credits.

If you’re looking for knits to start adding to your fall wardrobe, JellyRoll has you covered with their Hello Autumn dresses. I paired the one in Pine with some of my Blueberry jeans because it can be a bit brisk outside in the morning. Three fall colors are available, each for 10L. Sizes included are five standard mesh models and fitted models for 3 Belleza, 2 Slink, Maitreya, and TMP mesh bodies. Some clipping may occur with some poses and pants depending on fit. You should have no trouble if you wear it as a dress though.

Also at the Cart Sale are some vegetables to plant in your garden. I have a fondness for pumpkins, so i could not resist picking up the ones from B’s 25! to prepare for fall. Get the Circle Garden set which gives you the option of a fully planted plot, an empty plot, and all the vegies on their own to make your garden the stuff of your dreams. This is perfect for landscaping or having some fall fun with your family.

Lastly, if you are planning to garden, pick up the beautifully crafted Garden Cart from Dictatorshop to help move your plants about the yard. Three versions are available at the Dictatorshop mainstore: PG, Adult Vanilla, and Adult Kink. While not brand new, this piece is great for those who like a snuggle, or more, amongst nature. Menus on the PG version do not have any adult content, whereas only the Adult Kink version includes bondage content. You can change the texture of the Garden Cart by clicking the handle to match any of your outdoors tools. Check out all the details on the Dictatorshop website or try the demo in the shop.

See you all again soon and grab those 10L deals at the Cart Sale before they’re gone!

Credits

Hair: #Besom – Gossip *Fatpack* ~ by Kattington Resident

Top: JellyRoll – Hello Autumn Pine ~ by Tavish Zane @ Cart Sale August 2018

Pants: Blueberry – Gracie ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Cart: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Garden Cart – PG ~ by Dictatorshop Resident

Pumpkins: B’s 25! – Pumpkin Patch ~ by Brieya Silverweb @ Cart Sale August 2018

My Body Details

Links — > Dictatorshop, Cart Sale

Girls Like You

Girls Like You

Not in the spotlight. I stray amongst the shadows in constant thought. You probably don’t even notice me, lost in my own world. Quietly slipping in and out of the light that others loudly chase. But you noticed, didn’t you?

I won’t beg for your attention. I won’t beg for your time. Wandering, observing, dancing to an unheard tune. Reveling in the breath of life. I don’t ask to be understood.

You want easy? You want quiet? On your own time and at your beck and call? I’m not the one for you. You want fun? Playful? Dare to even want naughty? It doesn’t come easy and no apology will be given.

Without you, I’ll still thrive. I won’t beg for your attention. I won’t beg for your time. There’s no other girl like me.

Girls Like You


Okay people, we are getting down to the wire with the Cart Sale at the Wash! Only a few more days before it ends and you’ll be sad if you miss out! I’ve gathered a few more things together to show you what you can find for 10L. All links below the credits for those too eager to wait!

First up, in my first look, I am sharing the funky fun top that #hashbang! has out for sale in six fun colors. The Vaporized Top gives me an 80’s/90’s vibe with the layers and patterns on the chest. Sizes for this top include five standard mesh sizes and fitted mesh models for 3 Belleza, 2 Slink, Maitreya, 2 Tonic, TMP, eBody, and Occasin mesh bodies. Guys will find a similar top for them in 7 different fitted mesh models for male mesh bodies and a standard classic fit. Behind me, I am using a backdrop from the Dark Fae which is also at the sale. Several colors are available and they are mod so you can resize them to suit your needs. I love the vibrant color and could not resist the purple one.

In my second look, I am wearing the Margo set from battle fairy. Five colors are available and each comes in sizes for 3 Belleza, 2 Slink, and Maitreya mesh bodies. The fit is good but it is short, so careful bending over ladies! While not pictured, there are matching heels up for sale too. From Dark Knight Decor you’ll find lovely flower arrangements to add some charm to your home. I’ve set out one of the Carnation vases they have at the Cart Sale on my little side table. If you’re looking for bigger arrangements or other wall decor, they have just what you need. Since this was for my bedroom, I grabbed a room divider from DigitalDreams to add a little extra privacy. Several different designs are available to choose from so you’re sure to find one to match any part of your home. They also have beautiful autumn artwork ready to adorn your walls, some of which is photography from Real Life.

Lastly I am sharing a newer release from my sponsor Dictatorshop. The Vindustria Bed was released at ROMP and comes in three versions: PG, Adult Vanilla, and Adult Kink. Each of these are sold separately but the Adult Kink version includes all of the animations you could desire. This bed has a touch of whimsy with it’s curved frame which has a curtain draped across the top. Located at the front of the bed, the Dictatorshop shop logo houses the menu for changing the texture of the bedsheets, security for who can access the menu, and the on/off option for the curtain. If you’re unfamiliar with the beautiful animation options Dictatorshop has, demos in the shop are set out for you to try. The Vindustria Bed is probably my new favorite bed on the grid. If you’re into the kinky side of life, the frame makes has perfect attachment points for bondage play. If not? Snuggle away in this sweet bed with a loved one. You can now find this bed in the Dictatorshop mainstore.

I should have one more post for you with Cart Sale goodies so keep an eye out for it! Until next time. ❤

Credits

~ Look 1 ~

Hair: Besom – Gossip *Fatpack* ~ by Kattington Resident

Choker: Kibitz – Mini collar [Kitten] ~ by Kathya Szczepanski

Shirt: #hashbang! – Vaporized Top – Maitreya Lara – Consumerism ~ by Nix Marabana @ Cart Sale August 2018

Pants: Blueberry – Ashberry – Tied Up Jeans – Fatpack ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Gloves: RealEvil Industries – **RE** Motor Gloves ~ by Crashnoww Resident

Bracelet: e.marie – Friendship Bracelet – Sterling ~ by Emilianamarie Resident

Belly Piercing: RealEvil Industries – **RE** Dolce Belly Piercing ~ by Crashnoww Resident

My Body Details

Backdrop: The Dark Fae’s Glam Backdrop Purple ~ by Corvi Ashdene @ Cart Sale August 2018

~ Look 2 ~

Hair: Doe – Zoie – Indecisive ~ by Helyanwe Vindaloo

Outfit: .::battle fairy::. – margo two piece set tangerine ~ by Grace Selene @ Cart Sale August 2018

Bed and Night Stand: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Vindustria Bondage Bed – Adult Kink ~ by Dictatorshop Resident

Divider: DigitalDreams – carved wood – room divider ~ by Kubric Flux @ Cart Sale August 2018

Painting: DigitalDreams – Autumn Woods – canvas print~ by Kubric Flux @ Cart Sale August 2018

Flower: Dark Knight Decor – Carnation Vases (lavenders) @ Cart Sale August 2018

Curtains: +Half-Deer+ – Fairy Curtains ~ by Halogen Magic

Links — > Dictatorshop, Cart Sale