I Found Solace in the Strangest Place Way in the Back of My Mind

I Found Solace in the Strangest Place Way in the Back of My Mind

Looking back on the past 12 or so months, I have been battling demons and dealing with some of the toughest health issues of my life. Four ER trips, a two-month stint in the hospital following major surgery, and multiple traumas that no one should have to go through made up the majority of my 2019. Every year has its ups and downs, but seldom have I felt close to breaking. I felt betrayed by my body. Unable to get through my day without sheer exhaustion from struggling to function.

And yet…I’ve pulled through the darkness. I’ve climbed over that terrifying mountain and made it to the other side, finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. While I’ve beaten the hardest part of this past year, the road ahead won’t be easy as I heal, strengthen, and grow as a person both mentally and physically. Thankfully, I won’t be alone on my journey. My family, friends, and partner have all been behind me, supporting and cheering me on each step of the way in my recovery. While I’ve never doubted their support, I admit to doubting myself at times. I’m only human.

With the dawn of a new year and a new decade, I hope to find renewed strength and love for myself. 2019 knocked me down but 2020 is already showing promise if I continue to move forward. As always, I’m not going to give in. Not going to fall. I’m still breathing. ♥

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – Jamie – Fatpack ~ by Truth Hawks

Top: erratic – janelle – crop top / feline (maitreya) ~ by Erratic Rain

Earrings: e.marie – Farrah Earrings – Golds ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident @ N-Twenty1 December 2019

Bracelets: [ kunst ] – Olivia Handpiece ~ by Kunst Himmel @ Kustom9

Bracelet: e.marie – Friendship Bracelet – Sterling ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Collar: Violent Seduction – Aureus (Fatpack) ~ by Iki Akiri

Headband: e.marie – 2020 Headband ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Head: LeLutka – Bento Head-KORINA ~ by JadenArt Resident

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

Links — > N-Twenty1

Everybody’s Comin’, Leave Your Body at the Door

Everybody's Comin', Leave Your Body at the Door

Hello monsters and ghouls! There is a new event called Trick or Treat that started October 21st and I am excited to share it with you all! If you like gachas and Halloween, this is an event for you; play for free and play all the gachas like normal or you can buy the VIP Hud which will give you a grand prize once you’ve played each gacha until you collect all prizes. No gacha item is repeated so there is no worries about duplicate items. Find more info on how it all works and landmarks here. Now on to some previews!

I’m still trying to figure out my costume for Halloween so I picked up a few things to mix and match with. At The Little Bat, the Grand Prize is a set of Monochrome Leggings that have several different patterns for the top section to pick from. This set comes in an omega applier. Commons include other leggings variations and mesh nails fitted for Maitreya and Slink hands.

My top is from Squishy Fluff and is one of several of the Treat tops with words on it. It comes fitted for Maitreya, Slink Physique and Hourglass, Kemono, and Ruth2 mesh bodies. Collect all ten tops and get comfy for the house or out and about. Squishy Fluff also has trick prizes that include raisin dresses and Pumpkin Spice Lax.

To complete my look, I picked up a necklace from Astara. They have both good and bad witch crystal necklaces so play until you get one you prefer. Cubic Cherry made cute horns, eyes, and a mask for the grand prize. The horns seemed to match my look for this evening the most and nestle perfectly in my hair. Lastly, I couldn’t forget my Frankenbucket with candy and my gummy worm to keep me energized for partying all night long.

Everybody's Comin', Leave Your Body at the Door

Look out for more previews soon and have fun Trick or Treating!

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – TRUTH VIP Batty ~ by Truth Hawks

Top: Squishy Fluff – TREAT – Snarky Raglan Top – Fluent In Sarcas ~ by Skyler Glasswing @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Pants: The Little Bat – !TLB – Monochrome Leggings ~ by Drusilla Dethly @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Shoes: REIGN – HOCUS PLATFORM HEELS – Black&White Pack ~ by Kenadeecole and Illy Miami

Necklace: Astara – Bad Witch Necklace Green ~ Astarabonnibelle Resident @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Horns: [Cubic Cherry] – {Lil Devil} headband SKY ~ by Kreao Kujisawa @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Gummy: ~SongBird~ – Mouth Gummy Worms ~ by Nimil Blackflag @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Pose: Foxcity – Red Hot Bento Pose Set ~ by Satomi Masukami

My Body Details

~ Furniture and Decor ~

House: Scarlet Creative – Lovecraft Gothic Cottage Purple ~ by Charlotte Bartlett

Web: +Half-Deer+ – Starlit Spiderwebs [Set of 5] ~ by Halogen Magic

Pumpkin Left: {vespertine} – illuminated pumpkin – short /witchy purple ~ by Amelie Knelstrom @ Collabor88 October 2018

Pumpkin Right: {vespertine} – illuminated pumpkin – tall /zombie green ~ by Amelie Knelstrom @ Collabor88 October 2018

Bucket: ~SongBird~ – Frankenbucket (filled) ~ by Nimil Blackflag @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Mat: brocante. – doormat / it’s lit ~ by Tegan Serin @ Salem 2018

Links — > SLS Trick or Treat, Salem, Collabor88

Every Second Counts ’cause There’s No Second Try

Every Second Counts 'cause There's No Second Try

Saying goodbye to the past. Took my last look. Never turning back.

Leaves falling, slowly turning darker, drier, more brittle with each passing day. Ground crumbling beneath our feet. Announcing a change running its course. You can’t see the end. It blends in with the horizon, farther than you can see. Further than me.

Each step takes me closer. To the Dark. To the Light. Will you join me on this path? Or leave me to find my way? As I chase the Dream, you hesitate, scared to take the Leap.


This is my last post for this round of the Cart Sale. There is still so much to see so I highly recommend taking a look before the event ends on September 5th. All links listed below the credits.

If you’re looking for knits to start adding to your fall wardrobe, JellyRoll has you covered with their Hello Autumn dresses. I paired the one in Pine with some of my Blueberry jeans because it can be a bit brisk outside in the morning. Three fall colors are available, each for 10L. Sizes included are five standard mesh models and fitted models for 3 Belleza, 2 Slink, Maitreya, and TMP mesh bodies. Some clipping may occur with some poses and pants depending on fit. You should have no trouble if you wear it as a dress though.

Also at the Cart Sale are some vegetables to plant in your garden. I have a fondness for pumpkins, so i could not resist picking up the ones from B’s 25! to prepare for fall. Get the Circle Garden set which gives you the option of a fully planted plot, an empty plot, and all the vegies on their own to make your garden the stuff of your dreams. This is perfect for landscaping or having some fall fun with your family.

Lastly, if you are planning to garden, pick up the beautifully crafted Garden Cart from Dictatorshop to help move your plants about the yard. Three versions are available at the Dictatorshop mainstore: PG, Adult Vanilla, and Adult Kink. While not brand new, this piece is great for those who like a snuggle, or more, amongst nature. Menus on the PG version do not have any adult content, whereas only the Adult Kink version includes bondage content. You can change the texture of the Garden Cart by clicking the handle to match any of your outdoors tools. Check out all the details on the Dictatorshop website or try the demo in the shop.

See you all again soon and grab those 10L deals at the Cart Sale before they’re gone!

Credits

Hair: #Besom – Gossip *Fatpack* ~ by Kattington Resident

Top: JellyRoll – Hello Autumn Pine ~ by Tavish Zane @ Cart Sale August 2018

Pants: Blueberry – Gracie ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Cart: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Garden Cart – PG ~ by Dictatorshop Resident

Pumpkins: B’s 25! – Pumpkin Patch ~ by Brieya Silverweb @ Cart Sale August 2018

My Body Details

Links — > Dictatorshop, Cart Sale

Girls Like You

Girls Like You

Not in the spotlight. I stray amongst the shadows in constant thought. You probably don’t even notice me, lost in my own world. Quietly slipping in and out of the light that others loudly chase. But you noticed, didn’t you?

I won’t beg for your attention. I won’t beg for your time. Wandering, observing, dancing to an unheard tune. Reveling in the breath of life. I don’t ask to be understood.

You want easy? You want quiet? On your own time and at your beck and call? I’m not the one for you. You want fun? Playful? Dare to even want naughty? It doesn’t come easy and no apology will be given.

Without you, I’ll still thrive. I won’t beg for your attention. I won’t beg for your time. There’s no other girl like me.

Girls Like You


Okay people, we are getting down to the wire with the Cart Sale at the Wash! Only a few more days before it ends and you’ll be sad if you miss out! I’ve gathered a few more things together to show you what you can find for 10L. All links below the credits for those too eager to wait!

First up, in my first look, I am sharing the funky fun top that #hashbang! has out for sale in six fun colors. The Vaporized Top gives me an 80’s/90’s vibe with the layers and patterns on the chest. Sizes for this top include five standard mesh sizes and fitted mesh models for 3 Belleza, 2 Slink, Maitreya, 2 Tonic, TMP, eBody, and Occasin mesh bodies. Guys will find a similar top for them in 7 different fitted mesh models for male mesh bodies and a standard classic fit. Behind me, I am using a backdrop from the Dark Fae which is also at the sale. Several colors are available and they are mod so you can resize them to suit your needs. I love the vibrant color and could not resist the purple one.

In my second look, I am wearing the Margo set from battle fairy. Five colors are available and each comes in sizes for 3 Belleza, 2 Slink, and Maitreya mesh bodies. The fit is good but it is short, so careful bending over ladies! While not pictured, there are matching heels up for sale too. From Dark Knight Decor you’ll find lovely flower arrangements to add some charm to your home. I’ve set out one of the Carnation vases they have at the Cart Sale on my little side table. If you’re looking for bigger arrangements or other wall decor, they have just what you need. Since this was for my bedroom, I grabbed a room divider from DigitalDreams to add a little extra privacy. Several different designs are available to choose from so you’re sure to find one to match any part of your home. They also have beautiful autumn artwork ready to adorn your walls, some of which is photography from Real Life.

Lastly I am sharing a newer release from my sponsor Dictatorshop. The Vindustria Bed was released at ROMP and comes in three versions: PG, Adult Vanilla, and Adult Kink. Each of these are sold separately but the Adult Kink version includes all of the animations you could desire. This bed has a touch of whimsy with it’s curved frame which has a curtain draped across the top. Located at the front of the bed, the Dictatorshop shop logo houses the menu for changing the texture of the bedsheets, security for who can access the menu, and the on/off option for the curtain. If you’re unfamiliar with the beautiful animation options Dictatorshop has, demos in the shop are set out for you to try. The Vindustria Bed is probably my new favorite bed on the grid. If you’re into the kinky side of life, the frame makes has perfect attachment points for bondage play. If not? Snuggle away in this sweet bed with a loved one. You can now find this bed in the Dictatorshop mainstore.

I should have one more post for you with Cart Sale goodies so keep an eye out for it! Until next time. ❤

Credits

~ Look 1 ~

Hair: Besom – Gossip *Fatpack* ~ by Kattington Resident

Choker: Kibitz – Mini collar [Kitten] ~ by Kathya Szczepanski

Shirt: #hashbang! – Vaporized Top – Maitreya Lara – Consumerism ~ by Nix Marabana @ Cart Sale August 2018

Pants: Blueberry – Ashberry – Tied Up Jeans – Fatpack ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Gloves: RealEvil Industries – **RE** Motor Gloves ~ by Crashnoww Resident

Bracelet: e.marie – Friendship Bracelet – Sterling ~ by Emilianamarie Resident

Belly Piercing: RealEvil Industries – **RE** Dolce Belly Piercing ~ by Crashnoww Resident

My Body Details

Backdrop: The Dark Fae’s Glam Backdrop Purple ~ by Corvi Ashdene @ Cart Sale August 2018

~ Look 2 ~

Hair: Doe – Zoie – Indecisive ~ by Helyanwe Vindaloo

Outfit: .::battle fairy::. – margo two piece set tangerine ~ by Grace Selene @ Cart Sale August 2018

Bed and Night Stand: Dictatorshop – [Ds] Vindustria Bondage Bed – Adult Kink ~ by Dictatorshop Resident

Divider: DigitalDreams – carved wood – room divider ~ by Kubric Flux @ Cart Sale August 2018

Painting: DigitalDreams – Autumn Woods – canvas print~ by Kubric Flux @ Cart Sale August 2018

Flower: Dark Knight Decor – Carnation Vases (lavenders) @ Cart Sale August 2018

Curtains: +Half-Deer+ – Fairy Curtains ~ by Halogen Magic

Links — > Dictatorshop, Cart Sale

Boys Like a Little More Booty to Hold at Night

Boys Like a Little More Booty to Hold at Night

Summer is slowly winding down to its end. Our lazy warm days shorten bit by bit but still we dance and play as if it will never end. Couples wander, teasing and making mischief amongst the yellowing grasses. Kisses stolen by the campfire on a cool summer’s evening. Hazy days we’ve had. Soon over and dreamt of with whimsy during the cold winter days.

In hopes of holding onto summer’s fun a bit longer, the Cart Sale opened two days ago with many merchants offering lovely 10 linden summer goodies. I will be sharing some of what you can find in my next few posts.

My first look is a cute little dress from Mishmash Fusion that you can find in three colors. The Starseed Mini is a wonderfully flirty dress. Sizes included for each dress fit 3 Belleza, 2 Slink, Maitreya, and eBody mesh bodies. Grab this gem and tease your favorite eye candy as you bend over to pet some cute critters or fix a shoe. My friend followed me around and had picked up the Sleeveless Shirt from Dark Water Designs at the Cart Sale as well. Several colors are up for grabs, each one coming with models for Adam, Altamura, Signature, Slink, and ExMachina male mesh bodies.

Boys Like a Little More Booty to Hold at Night Another cute outfit I found is from Sweet Willows. My second look has somewhat of a nautical flavor with its dark blue top and white and blue striped skirt. This outfit is only available for Maitreya mesh bodies but there are four colors to pick from and the fit is nice. It’s casual enough not to feel overdressed going out, but cute enough that you won’t feel plain on a day date. Anyone up for some sailing? For a bit of whimsy, I added the Bottled Fairy Earrings from the Dark Fae which are also at the Cart Sale in five different colors. Each color of fairy is safely contained in a small glass bottle entwined with a bit of wire to be suspended from your ear. Boys Like a Little More Booty to Hold at Night

For the guys, you can find the Kimono Shirt from Dark Water Designs in four color options. This top has sizes for the male mesh bodies Adam, Jake, Signature, and Slink. While these are not traditional kimonos, they are comfy and casual enough for any guy just hanging out.

Looking for a nice setup in your yard to hangout while it’s still warm? =EC Designs= has you set! Check out their new Campfire Logs, Campfire, and the matching Campfire Stumps in the Campfire Set. The campfire logs come with four different versions of the pillows and cute sits for females, males, and couples. While the stumps are not pictured here, the post with lantern comes in the pack with tree stumps that come in two sizes. The tree stumps have animations perfect for singles, female or male, who just want to chill by the fire on their own.

That is all I have to show you for now. Plenty of other goodies await you in the Cart Sale at the Wash so make your way now before time runs out! All links are below.

Credits

~ Female Look 1 ~

Hair: Doe – Verity – Essentials ~ by Helyanwe Vindaloo

Dress: Mishmash Fusion – ~*MF*~ Starseed Mini – Red Bokeh ~ by Mystical Edenflower @ Cart Sale August 2018

Shoes: REIGN – EMILY HEELS- FATPACK ~ by Kenadeecole Resident & Liamcole Resident

~ Female Look 2 ~

Hair: Doe – Charity – Indecisive RARE ~ by Helyanwe Vindaloo

Earrings: The Dark Fae – Bottled Fairy Earrings Blue ~ by Corvi Ashdene @ Cart Sale August 2018

Top/Skirt: Sweet Willows – (SW) Ruffle Stripes Navy – Maitreya ~ by Willowjustice Resident @ Cart Sale August 2018

Shoes: REIGN – EMILY HEELS- FATPACK ~ by Kenadeecole Resident & Liamcole Resident

My Body Details

~ Male Look 1 ~

Shirt: Dark Water Designs – DWD – Sleeveless Shirt – Black ~ by Shadowed Luik @ Cart Sale August 2018

Pants: [Deadwool] – Broberry jeans – washed peacock ~ by Masa Plympton

~ Male Look 1 ~

Shirt: Dark Water Designs – DWD – Kimono Shirt – Grey Diamonds ~ by Shadowed Luik @ Cart Sale August 2018

Pants: [Deadwool] – Broberry jeans – washed peacock ~ by Masa Plympton

~ Decor ~

Logs: =EC Designs= – (Campfire Logs) ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, &  Muireann Galli @ Cart Sale August 2018

Fire: =EC Designs= – (Campfire) ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, &  Muireann Galli @ Cart Sale August 2018

Post: =EC Designs= – (Campfire Stumps) ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, &  Muireann Galli @ Cart Sale August 2018

Links — > Mishmash Fusion, =EC Designs=, Cart Sale

I Feel Your Whisper Across the Sea

Pergola Time_001

“Hey, wake up sleepyhead.” She nudges the snoring figure stretched out across a well padded lounge chair. A mumble from the dark haired man responds with a slight adjustment of his head resting on his arms as she continues to nudge his shoulders. Her hands begin softly rubbing over his shoulders, her quiet humming accompanied by distant bird calls.

After a few moments, his eyes flicker open as he stirs, waking up but pretending to slumber still as he listens to her hum a soft song. It was a rare treat to catch her humming, and he cherished every second. Suddenly, a finger jabbed into his back, making him jump up and grunt in surprise. “Ugggh… why you gotta wake me up like that, babe?” Shifting his body around, he sat up on the lounger, swiftly wrapped his arms around her and pulled her against his chest, making her squeal and laugh as he playfully jabbed her back with his finger.

Pergola Time_002

“You were already awake! I could tell when you stopped snoring.” She grinned up at him. As his arms move to hold her close, she reaches up to pull his head down for a soft kiss. His arms tighten around her for a moment, a smile on his lips as she pulls away, hand still holding his head.

Tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear, he chuckles, “Nothing gets past you, does it?”


The Cart Sale is still going strong, with less than a week left to grab the awesome deals with most items at 10L. I shared a few things in my previous post and I’m back to share a couple more things you can find there right now.

Battle fairy currently has a wonderful selection of summery dresses and sandal heels also set for sale at the Cart Sale. I’m wearing it on my Maitreya Lara mesh body with no clipping that I could see. For me it’s a perfect casual beachy look or a little dressed up for a date night. It comes in mesh models fitted for Maitreya Lara, Slink Physique and Hourglass, and Belleza Isis, Freya, and Venus. Grab all five dresses before it’s too late.

Pergola Time_006

My nails were done by Nail It Good! with their “it’s May” polish. This polish set comes in six fun patterns on one Hud which includes appliers for Slink, Omega, Maitreya, and Belleza nails for both hands and feet. Add some sparkle to your look before heading out this summer with this set.

Pergola Time_005

The finishing touch for my beachy look today was a necklace made by Captivating! There are six cute beaded necklaces for sale that will have you dreaming of the tropics and getting sand in your toes. Any of these necklaces would look nice with a strapless dress or swimwear.

From =EC Designs=, I have a cute pergola setup that includes a lounger that is animated for singles and couples. Sit with your friend and hang out, or cuddle up with your partner to relax in the sun. There are even massages if you feel like pampering your partner a bit. The set is easy to just set out and poses are adjustable. Whether you are vacationing at your beach house or need a relaxing cuddle spot in your yard, this set is too cute to pass up.

That is all for now but I will have one more post up before the event ends. Don’t delay though, go get these amazing deals before the event is over!

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – Jacica ~ by Truth Hawks (April VIP Group Gift)

Dress: .::battle fairy::. – sandra dee dress turquoise ~ by Grace Selene @ Cart Sale May 2018

Shoes: REIGN – LEATHER FLIP FLOPS- FATPACK ~ by Kenadeecole Resident

Necklace: Captivating! – Beach Beads #6 ~ by Lucinda Nagy @ Cart Sale May 2018

Nails: Nail It Good! – It’s May ~ by Freyablake Resident @ Cart Sale May 2018

Hand Jewels: Kibitz – Sandra hand jewelry – silver ~ by Kathya Szczepanski

Bracelet: e.marie – Friendship Bracelet – Sterling ~ by Emilianamarie Resident

My Body Details

Furniture Set: =EC Designs= – Summer Peace Pergola ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, & Muireann Galli @ Cart Sale May 2018

Links — > =EC Designs=, Cart Sale

Wake Up Where the Clouds Are Far Behind Me

Over the Rainbow_001

Good day folks! I’m feeling a little light on my feet today and maybe a touch whimsical. I feel a bit like Dorothy, floating up high with the birds and headed somewhere over a rainbow in the clouds. Not quite sure what’s in these balloons but they are lighter than air! I’m sharing just a couple more items today that you can find at the Cart Sale. Tomorrow is the last day so check it out ASAP.

Over the Rainbow_002

My dress for this picture comes from Classy Chics and is made only for the Maitreya body. There are ten color/prints up for sale for 10L and each comes with a tintable sleeve option that adds a bit more coverage and adds a subtle cutesy vibe. Pantie appliers in white and black are also included since it is such a short dress. My shoes are from Lourdes of London and are made for Slink only. There are five colors available to pick from and they make great staple pieces for any wardrobe. Dress them up for a night out or dress them down with a cute pair of jeans. Lastly, I wore the panties from Girlush’s lingerie set instead of the ones that came with the dress. This set is fitted for Maitreya as well and has a smexy lacey texture that just barely hides what it needs to. All of these items I’ve described are on sale for 10L at the Cart Sale.

Over the Rainbow_003

Just for fun, the balloon floatie I’m sitting on is from Blueberry and is a group gift OR you can get it off the Marketplace for 1L. It comes in a pack of 10 floaties with really cute rubber duckies, froggies, other balloons and more.

I have more to share from my sponsor Dictatorshop and hope to post again soon so see you next time! ❤

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: Doe – Shannon ~ by Helyanwe Vindaloo

Dress: Classy Chics – Spring Mini Dress – Blue Dots ~ by Chanty Moonstone @ Cart Sale January 2018

Panties: Girlush – Intense Lingerie Black ~ by Ushnasan Resident @ Cart Sale January 2018

Hand Jewels: Kibitz – Sandra hand jewelry – silver ~ by Kathya Szczepanski @ N21

Shoes: Loordes of London – The Calculating Shoe-#15 ~ by Coleen Macarthur @ Cart Sale January 2018

My Body Details

~ Extras ~

Floatie: Blueberry – Floatie Collection Gift ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Puppy: JIAN – Splendid Spaniels BOX 15. Ruby Held ~ by Jiansl Resident

Backdrop: FOXCITY. – Weightless Booth (VIP Gift 02-18) ~ by Satomi Masukami

Links — > Cart Sale January 2018, N21, Blueberry