I Was Raised By Wolves Taught to Fight Until the Death

Night draws closer as I wander amongst the shadows of the room. A soft hum of anticipation buzzing under your skin. Tingles, hair standing up on the back of your neck, pulse beating hard and fast.
Fear keeps you frozen in place as I drift near; your breath catches in excitement as I inhale your scent. With an exhale, my cigarette’s smoke mists across your face. You fight a cough. I arch a brow.

With a lazy heeled turn, I make my way back to the smooth wood desk piled high with manuscripts with hidden secrets you yearn to glean. Perhaps one day you’ll learn them. Perhaps one day you’ll pass them along to your children.

With a predatory smile from my lips as I lounge back in my leather chair, cigarette holder held aloft, you gulp and think to yourself that perhaps you may never see another night again.

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My lovely readers, I apologize for my absence. As I’m sure many of you can empathize with, real life has been rather surreal and motivation low for hobbies many of us usually enjoy. This last set from Dictatorshop, however, inspired me to tap into my darker sultry side again.

For 20% off while at Cosmopolitan, the Port Royal Executive Suite offers a world of options for decorating and roleplay. You can choose between PG, Vanilla, and Kink sets to accommodate all of your needs. Each piece is loaded with animations so you will never be bored no matter what you are wanting to do. As always, Dictatorshop offers you gorgeous texture options to ensure it suits your tastes. After Cosmopolitan is over, the set will be at the mainstore for you to try out.

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – Poetry – Fatpack ~ by Truth Hawks

Hat: Raven Bell – Theodora Veiled Hat ~ by Raven Bell

Dress: Just BECAUSE – Morticia Gown – FatPack ~ by Annie Melson

Pearls: AvaWay – LOVER’S KNOT Necklaces Set ~ by Avaway Resident

Nails: e.marie – Mix&Match Coffin – Dark Omens ~ by Emiliana Nova

Rose: .aisling. Knight of Flowers Eyepatch ~ by Druunah Esharham

Rings: (Yummy) Raw Crystal Rings ~ by Polyester Partridge

Cigarette: [ kunst ] – Old Cigarette Holder ~ by Kunst Himmel

My Body Details

~ Furniture & Decor ~

Desk: Dictatorshop – [Ds] PORT ROYAL Executive Desk ADULT KINK ~ by Dictatorshop Resident @

Hutch: Dictatorshop – [Ds] PORT ROYAL Executive Hutch ADULT VANILLA ~ by Dictatorshop Resident @

Chair: Dictatorshop – [Ds] PORT ROYAL Executive Guest Chair PG/Everyone ~ by Dictatorshop Resident @

Books on Desk: .aisling. FantaYstic Four ~ by Druunah Esharham

Gems: .aisling. Mystical Gems ~ by Druunah Esharham

Jar: Tentacio – Pagan Ritual Fatpack ~ by May Tolsen

Poster: Candle and Cauldron – {C&C} Tarot Map Frame ~ by Orphana Bloodrose

Books/Scroll/Skull: DISORDERLY. / Ritual Night / FATPACK ~ by Rogue Falconer

Star Globe: ::Static:: – Voidsent Astrolabe {Penumbra} ~ by Nama Gearz

Green Planter: Petrichor – :[P]:- Summer Night Sky Collection ~ by Vae Darkheart

Hanging Plant: hive // hanging bougainvillea plant – set 1 ~ by TheHiveStore Resident

Links — > Dictatorshop | Cosmopolitan

And, Oh, But She’s So Brave, Though, Just Like a Tornado

Put my whole heart on the line,
Get hurt every single time.
Loving you was never tough,
But it still wasn’t enough.
You saw problems,
Never asked for a solution.
I saw our future,
Staying in a forward motion.

Time slowed down to a standstill,
Draining my resolve and will.
Thunder and lightning brew,
Mind wondering what was true.
Stumbling, falling to the ground,
Listening for lost familiar sounds.
Reaching out for a sign, an omen,
Untangling threads of life’s hope stolen.

Sunlight bathes me in its glow,
Promising a bright future to show.
Hesitation binds my feet to this spot,
Determination guides me onward to trot.
Moonbeams shower my body at night,
Charging my energy and resolve to take flight.
Heart still yearning for Him,
Soul guiding my lifelong swim.

For every breath I take that parts our days,
I step down the path for the one who stays.
Will you return to me?
Is it meant to be?
Or is there another behind your shadow,
Searching as I do with no time to borrow?
Alone or bound to another soul,
My rare heart is the true prize to hold.

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: Truth – Paradise ~ by Truth Hawks

Dress: Salt & Pepper – Millie Dress ~ by Salt Peppermint (SL17B Shop and Hop gift)

Choker: Ahegao – Little Kitten Collar ~ by AmiTrouble Resident

Earrings: e.marie – Nami Earrings – Golds ~ by Emiliana Nova

Bracelet: [ kunst ] – Olivia Handpiece ~ by Kunst Himmel

Rings & Nails: RealEvil Industries – Glam Nails & Rings ~ by Crashnoww Resident

Head: LeLutka – LeLutka Bento Head-KORINA ~ by Jadenart Resident

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

My Body Details

Can You Hear the Whispers All Across the Room?

Quiet. Silence. Deafening stillness fills my room without your presence. My mind spins a mile a minute, then slows like grass in a gentle breeze. How do I do this again? Being on my own without another voice overpowering mine?
Comfort. Normal. Your presence was constant but what about your mind? Always elsewhere. Together but alone. Now I’m alone but no longer lonely. Finding myself again, remembering who I am and where I want to go.
Quiet. Silence. Filling the emptiness with songs of my heart. Searching for new passions to re-ignite my flames. You may see me, but you won’t recognize the woman I’m becoming. Whispering, you’ll wonder how I became what I am. Who I am.

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The Cart Sale has been running for about two weeks now and we have about one week left! If you’ve missed previous posts, the Cart Sale is a shopping event where all items are 50L or less. Today I am giving you more peeks at what you can find there. Be sure to check the event out before it ends on April 15th.

One of the items I am wearing comes from Dark Water Designs. The Crochet Overlay Top is a cute form-fitting top and has a HUD included with a few color options. Sizes for Maitreya, Slink Physique and Hourglass, and Belleza Freya, Venus, and Isis mesh bodies are included. Next to me on the bed are a few items from Dark Knight Decor; the tea kettle and macaroons come in separate sets but go well together for a sweet afternoon treat. The lantern next to me is from The Dark Fae. Turn this cute piece on and light up your room with a bit of whimsy that comes in quite a few colors to pick from. Behind the lantern, you’ll see a vase of tulips and a planter of roses that both come from StoraxTree. Each has a selection of colors so you can find just the right one for any room or garden theme.

That is all I have for you today. Until next time. ❤

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – Vanish ~ by Truth Hawks

Top: Dark Water Designs – Crochet Overlay Top ~ by Shadowed Luik @ Cart Sale March 2020

Shorts: Blueberry – FLF Love Spring Shorts ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Body Glitter: [Cynful] – Stripper Body Dust ~ by Cynthia Ultsch

Rings: (Yummy) – Felicity Ring Set ~ by Polyester Partridge

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

~ Furniture & Decor ~

Bed: BackBone – Dreamer’s Bed ~ by Kiana Writer & Rheinhard Kappler

Chair: BackBone – Chic Bunny Set – Chair ~ by Kiana Writer & Rheinhard Kappler

Pouffe: BackBone – Chic Bunny Set – Foot Stool – Holo ~ by Kiana Writer & Rheinhard Kappler

Kettle: Dark Knight Decor – Modern Kettle Set, Black ~ by Mika Redfield @ Cart Sale March 2020

Tea and Macaroons: Dark Knight Decor – Afternoon Tea Set ~ by Mika Redfield @ Cart Sale March 2020

Lantern: The Dark Fae – Woodsy Lantern Blue ~ by Corvi Ashdene @ Cart Sale March 2020

Lamp: BackBone – Comfy Cloud Set ~ by Kiana Writer & Rheinhard Kappler

Vase: StoraxTree – Paris Patio Pitcher Tulips A1 ~ by Kate McLaglen @ Cart Sale March 2020

Planter: StoraxTree – Iron Plant Stand Planter Roses C13 ~ by Kate McLaglen @ Cart Sale March 2020

Books: BackBone – Lazy Gamer’s Hideout Set – Mangas ~ by Kiana Writer & Rheinhard Kappler

Figurine: BackBone – Comfy Cloud Set – FunnyBone #7 – Comfy Cuddlebuddy ~ by Druelbozo Resident

Table: BackBone – Lazy Gamer’s Hideout Set – Tray (holo) ~ by Kiana Writer & Rheinhard Kappler

Links — > Cart Sale | Blueberry

Girl, Put Your Records On, Tell Me Your Favorite Song

Hello everyone! I hope you are all staying safe and healthy in these crazy times. I know I’m slowly starting to go a bit more insane… With all of the time at home, you’d think we would be more productive with projects we’ve left unfinished for a while, but alas, we’re just trying to cope in these strange circumstances. One of the best ways to do so is to listen to some good music. What’s your favorite band, genre, song? Whatever makes you relax or feel upbeat, turn it up and dance around in your room or while you make some food.

Another good way to have some fun is shopping! I know some are struggling to save money while they are out of work, but there are some great deals in SecondLife that won’t break your bank. The Cart Sale at the Wash has begun and is chock full of items that are 50L or less. Some of what I am currently wearing is from the Cart Sale. My dress was created by Sweet Willows and there are seven different color/pattern options to pick from and only costs 10L. Every single color/pattern comes in mesh sizes fitted for Maitreya Lara, Slink Physique and Hourglass, and the Belleza Freya bodies. My hat is from Tiar, and while it is called Mens hat, I found it gives a fun twist to my look. It is modifiable to make sure you have the purrfect fit.

I will have more for again but don’t delay and grab these bargains before the event ends on April 15th.

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: Magika – Hair – Fiona ~ by Sabina Gully

Headband: Majestic.+ – Purple Flower Headband ~ by Myhstical Resident

Hat: Tiar – Mens hat ~ by Atiya Baar @ Cart Sale March 2020

Dress: Sweet Willows – Janis Pastel Mini Dress ~ by WillowJustice Resident @ Cart Sale March 2020

Garter: Sweet Thing – Bath’kol Garter – Passion ~ by AyaShula Resident

Purse: Blueberry – Ride or Die – Purses – Fat Pack ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Rings: (Yummy) – Spring Splendor ~ by Polyester Partridge

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

Pose: FOXCITY – Breather VOL2 Animated Pose Set ~ by Satomi Masukami

Links — > Cart Sale | Blueberry | Uber

Don’t Go Chasing Waterfalls

Hey peeps! Linden Labs has made it so the SL Home and Garden Expo has a few more days! If you haven’t checked it out yet, you’re missing out on a great way to contribute to Relay For Life. As I stated in my previous post, there are creators with items up for grabs that contribute either 100% sale donations or 50% sale donations to RFL. In addition there is an auction and many creators have decorated homes to compete for the most donations to RFL. One of the homes I visited is on the water and named the Beach Cabin. House No. 11 is a cozy little home with a small living area, spacious foyer and bedroom upstairs, and an outdoor kitchen and dining area perfect for enjoying a view of the water. The dock also offers easy access to moor a boat. Come take a look at the wonderful work Alec Rogue has done on his build and donate some linden if you can to his donation kiosk. Every linden donated is a vote for their home and 100% go to RFL!

Happy exploring. ♥

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – Taren – Selection ~ by Truth Hawks

Dress: Blueberry – Reachless – Dress & Top – Fat Pack ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Jacket: Blueberry – Reachless – Denim Jacket – Fat Pack ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Purse: AsteroidBox. – Moon Clutch Bag ~ by LeithDrew Resident

Shoes: REIGN – RUMOR HEELS – FATPACK ~ by KenadeeCole Resident & illy Miami

Collar: Violent Seduction – Aureus (Fatpack) ~ by Iki Akiri

Rings: (Yummy) – Felicity Ring Set ~ by Polyester Partridge

Pose: Foxcity – Breather VOL3 Bento Pose Set ~ by Satomi Masukami

Head: LeLutka – Bento Head-KORINA ~ by JadenArt Resident

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

Links — > House No. 11 | SL Home & Garden Expo

Some Girls Wear Jeans So Tight ’cause it Feels So Right, Yeah

February, the month of love and romance, is almost over. While most think of it as the time for couples, it’s also a good time to show ourselves a bit of self-love. A reminder if you will, that YOU are amazing and deserving of love just the way you are. Whether you fit into one of society’s supposed “perfect” boxes or dance to the beat of your own drum, we’re all a work in progress just trying to win our battles each day. So in honor of love and being true to ourselves, treat yourself this month. Buy yourself your favorite treat, watch your favorite show or movie, and just take a moment each day to look in the mirror and tell yourself “I’m awesome the way I am.”

With the onset of spring fast approaching, I often find myself wanting to redecorate to give my surroundings a fresh look. Sprucing up my home is therapeutic for me and I’ve found some lovely things recently. =EC Designs= has created some fun new furniture sets for your homes inworld which are currently being exclusively sold at the SL Home and Garden Expo. The Home and Garden Expo is a huge event that supports Relay For Life, a cause near and dear to many of us. One of their new adorable sets that is up for 50/50 Donations is the Garden Patio Set. Included in this set are a loveseat, chair, and table that are spring green and golden yellow. Both the chair and the loveseat have several female and male single sits which can be accessed in any sitting spot. Couples can cozy up together on the Loveseat to enjoy a nice afternoon in the sun.

If you’re looking for living room pieces, they have you covered there too with their Lawson Living Room set that has two different loveseats, an armchair, coffee tables, and a lamp which is one of their 100% donation sets. Their Gemini Lounger is up for 100% RFL donations as well. If you’re up for hunting, their Laced Up Chair is their hunt prize and will add a fun quirky vibe to any room in your house. Lastly, they have an item up for auction for the Expo. The Sheltered Lounge provides a cozy shady spot to relax or cuddle up with your loved one, which is being offered up in an event exclusive color. Be sure to check it out and help show some love to the cause!

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: Doe: Charity – Indecisive RARE ~ by Helyanwe Vindaloo

Top: Blueberry – Unbothered – Oversized Tops – Fat Pack ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Pants: Blueberry – Unbothered – Jeans & Leather Pants – Fat Pack ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Shoes: REIGN – CAROLINE HEELS – FATPACK ~ by KenadeeCole Resident & illy Miami

Earrings: e.marie – Cora Earrings – Golds ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Collar: Violent Seduction – Aureus (Fatpack) ~ by Iki Akiri

Rings: RealEvil Industries – Queen of Hearts Rings Set ~ by Crashnoww Resident @ Fameshed January 2020

Head: LeLutka – Bento Head-KORINA ~ by JadenArt Resident

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

~ Furniture & Decor ~

Couch/Chairs/Table: =EC Designs= (Garden Patio Set ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, and Muireann Galli @ SL Home & Garden Expo 2020

Flower Box: Jian – Darlington Window Planter (Coleus) ~ by JianSL Resident

Potted Plant: +Half-Deer+ – Beary Spring Planter – Panda ~ by Halogen Magic

Laptop & Books: .peaches. – Tap That App – Laptop and Books ~ by Imaginerabbits Resident

Dog: Jian – Posh Pups :: White ~ by JianSL Resident (Posh Pups gacha)

Phoenix: *HEXtraordinary* – Pulse Fundraiser Rainbow Phoenix ~ by Corwin Lacourte

Roses: +Half-Deer+ – Fairylight Rose Vines [Midnight] ~ by Halogen Magic

Vines: +Half-Deer+ – White Blossom Vines [Set of 4] ~ by Halogen Magic

House: Linden Home – Victorian the Verne – Second Life Premium Perk

Links — > =EC Designs= | Home and Garden Expo| Blueberry

So Hard to Choose, Between the Pleasure and the Pain

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I Found Solace in the Strangest Place Way in the Back of My Mind

Looking back on the past 12 or so months, I have been battling demons and dealing with some of the toughest health issues of my life. Four ER trips, a two-month stint in the hospital following major surgery, and multiple traumas that no one should have to go through made up the majority of my 2019. Every year has its ups and downs, but seldom have I felt close to breaking. I felt betrayed by my body. Unable to get through my day without sheer exhaustion from struggling to function.

And yet…I’ve pulled through the darkness. I’ve climbed over that terrifying mountain and made it to the other side, finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. While I’ve beaten the hardest part of this past year, the road ahead won’t be easy as I heal, strengthen, and grow as a person both mentally and physically. Thankfully, I won’t be alone on my journey. My family, friends, and partner have all been behind me, supporting and cheering me on each step of the way in my recovery. While I’ve never doubted their support, I admit to doubting myself at times. I’m only human.

With the dawn of a new year and a new decade, I hope to find renewed strength and love for myself. 2019 knocked me down but 2020 is already showing promise if I continue to move forward. As always, I’m not going to give in. Not going to fall. I’m still breathing. ♥

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – Jamie – Fatpack ~ by Truth Hawks

Top: erratic – janelle – crop top / feline (maitreya) ~ by Erratic Rain

Earrings: e.marie – Farrah Earrings – Golds ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident @ N-Twenty1 December 2019

Bracelets: [ kunst ] – Olivia Handpiece ~ by Kunst Himmel @ Kustom9

Bracelet: e.marie – Friendship Bracelet – Sterling ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Collar: Violent Seduction – Aureus (Fatpack) ~ by Iki Akiri

Headband: e.marie – 2020 Headband ~ by EmilianaMarie Resident

Head: LeLutka – Bento Head-KORINA ~ by JadenArt Resident

Body: Maitreya – Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara ~ by Onyx LaShelle

Links — > N-Twenty1

I’m Countin’ On You to Carry Me Through

Hello everyone! It’s been some time since I’ve last posted. My Muse took a little holiday but she’s been tempted back by a few events that have recently begun. Today I am sharing an item from one of my favorite shops, =EC Designs=, that is currently on sale at the SL Home and Garden Expo.

=EC Designs= has created a beautiful raft that will be perfect for lazy summer days in the heat on the river. There are so many poses loaded into this raft that you will never run out of options whether you are single or cuddled up with a special someone. Six avatars can sit on the All Aboard Raft which means you have quite a few seating combinations between six singles, 3 couples, or some variation of the two. While couples do need to sit in a certain spot for the poses to mesh appropriately for female and male couples, individuals may sit in any location and choose from female or male pose menus. No matter which menu you’re using, there are TONS of options. While at the SL Home and Garden Expo, this fantastic piece will be discounted and 100% of its sales go to Relay for Life so you will be contributing to a good cause while also getting a good deal! Also peek at their Harboside Gazebo and Porthole Clocks Gacha while you are there.

With the Cart Sale just opening today, more is on the way so check back soon! 🙂

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: Magika – Road ~ by Sabina Gully

Outfit: Blueberry – Ivy ~ by Blueberryxx Resident

Gloves: [Atomic] – Darling Gloves ~ byIvy Graves

Rings: Kibitz – Sandra hand jewelry – silver ~ by Kathya Szczepanski

~ Furniture ~

Raft: =EC Designs= – (All Aboard Raft) ~ by Cara Lionheart, Jaxx Doulton, & Muireann Galli @ SL Home & Garden Expo

Links — > SL Home & Garden Expo, =EC Designs=, Blueberry

Everybody’s Comin’, Leave Your Body at the Door

Hello monsters and ghouls! There is a new event called Trick or Treat that started October 21st and I am excited to share it with you all! If you like gachas and Halloween, this is an event for you; play for free and play all the gachas like normal or you can buy the VIP Hud which will give you a grand prize once you’ve played each gacha until you collect all prizes. No gacha item is repeated so there is no worries about duplicate items. Find more info on how it all works and landmarks here. Now on to some previews!

I’m still trying to figure out my costume for Halloween so I picked up a few things to mix and match with. At The Little Bat, the Grand Prize is a set of Monochrome Leggings that have several different patterns for the top section to pick from. This set comes in an omega applier. Commons include other leggings variations and mesh nails fitted for Maitreya and Slink hands.

My top is from Squishy Fluff and is one of several of the Treat tops with words on it. It comes fitted for Maitreya, Slink Physique and Hourglass, Kemono, and Ruth2 mesh bodies. Collect all ten tops and get comfy for the house or out and about. Squishy Fluff also has trick prizes that include raisin dresses and Pumpkin Spice Lax.

To complete my look, I picked up a necklace from Astara. They have both good and bad witch crystal necklaces so play until you get one you prefer. Cubic Cherry made cute horns, eyes, and a mask for the grand prize. The horns seemed to match my look for this evening the most and nestle perfectly in my hair. Lastly, I couldn’t forget my Frankenbucket with candy and my gummy worm to keep me energized for partying all night long.

Look out for more previews soon and have fun Trick or Treating!

Credits

~ My Look ~

Hair: TRUTH – TRUTH VIP Batty ~ by Truth Hawks

Top: Squishy Fluff – TREAT – Snarky Raglan Top – Fluent In Sarcas ~ by Skyler Glasswing @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Pants: The Little Bat – !TLB – Monochrome Leggings ~ by Drusilla Dethly @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Shoes: REIGN – HOCUS PLATFORM HEELS – Black&White Pack ~ by Kenadeecole and Illy Miami

Necklace: Astara – Bad Witch Necklace Green ~ Astarabonnibelle Resident @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Horns: [Cubic Cherry] – {Lil Devil} headband SKY ~ by Kreao Kujisawa @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Gummy: ~SongBird~ – Mouth Gummy Worms ~ by Nimil Blackflag @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Pose: Foxcity – Red Hot Bento Pose Set ~ by Satomi Masukami

My Body Details

~ Furniture and Decor ~

House: Scarlet Creative – Lovecraft Gothic Cottage Purple ~ by Charlotte Bartlett

Web: +Half-Deer+ – Starlit Spiderwebs [Set of 5] ~ by Halogen Magic

Pumpkin Left: {vespertine} – illuminated pumpkin – short /witchy purple ~ by Amelie Knelstrom @ Collabor88 October 2018

Pumpkin Right: {vespertine} – illuminated pumpkin – tall /zombie green ~ by Amelie Knelstrom @ Collabor88 October 2018

Bucket: ~SongBird~ – Frankenbucket (filled) ~ by Nimil Blackflag @ SLS Trick or Treat October 2018

Mat: brocante. – doormat / it’s lit ~ by Tegan Serin @ Salem 2018

Links — > SLS Trick or Treat, Salem, Collabor88